By Kimberly Davis Guerra, Photo by Alisa Murray Photography
It’s 4am and I am awake. Again. It seems like only yesterday these thoughts were streaming through my head like a movie. Surely it can’t be happening again. I must be dreaming, right?
To catch you up, six years ago, at the age of 39, I decided to fulfill my lifelong dream and adopt. It was a tough decision, but one I was ready to make. To say the process was bumpy would be an understatement. However, after two birthmothers backed out, I was ultimately rewarded with the child I was meant to have, my son Bodhi. He is everything I could have ever hoped for and I am thankful every day that he came into my life. Many nights during the adoption process, I woke at 4am. It seemed to be the time that my brain went off with thoughts, worries and panics about what was happening. I didn’t sleep much that year.
Bodhi turned five last December and we have settled into a routine of sorts. He starts Kindergarten this fall and just began playing T-ball. I was starting to feel like we had passed a milestone and gotten through the toddler years. Our family was starting to grow up. Then the call came. Bodhi’s birth mom is pregnant again. She wants to place the child with us. OMG. Now what?!
Now don’t get me wrong. We have considered adopting more children. I wanted Bodhi to have a sibling closer to his age (his stepsister is 18 years older). He and his stepsister are super-close, but they do not get to see each other as often as they would like. So he has been asking for a baby brother or sister for quite some time. It just never seemed to be the right time or the right choice. But when presented with this opportunity, how can we turn down his biological sibling? How incredible would it be if he could grow up with his half-sister or brother? How can we deny him that opportunity if we can make it happen?
Well, we are all about to find out. Journey to Motherhood, Part II starts now. Join my family on the journey through this process to expand out family. It is my hope that we will educate, inspire and touch other families’ lives in a way that will encourage them to follow the path that is placed in front of them. Never did I think that we would be going down this path again, but never say never. Stay tuned for updates and more next month.